Fight for the weak ones
Speak out for freedom
Find faith in the battle
Stand tall but above it all
Fix my eyes on you.
~Fix My Eyes by For King and Country
I was going to lunch late one night in the emergency room. My registration desk looked out at the waiting area. A couple sat across from me with their child. I watched the child, pale as a ghost, keep trying to stand and speak in jumbled words. They were waiting for a room when I left for lunch.
When I returned, they were still there and, deep inside, I knew something was wrong. I went to get a nurse. They quickly opened a treatment room and ushered the family to the back.
In a few minutes, the alarm sounded for a code. The child’s breathing had stopped. We could hear the screams of the parents from our desks.
A few days later, the newspapers ran the story. After transfer to a higher level hospital and ICU, the child died from meningitis.
Where is faith in that battle? How do we stand in the midst of tragedy and fix our eyes on the author of our faith? How do you tell those parents that it will all work out in time, that their child is now in a much better place without pain, sickness, or suffering?
That face will stick with me for the rest of my life. Those words, the questions, asking and asking and asking. I can still hear it some nights in the silence.
Maybe it is not about justification. Maybe it is about honesty. Faith is telling God exactly how you feel. It is questioning motives and results. It is living with expectations and hanging on in the darkness, even if it is by a thread.
You can only stand in the battle through faith.
You can only fix your eyes with purpose. Every race is run with an endpoint in mind and every struggle will end. It may be in joy and transition or tragedy and sadness. The trick is fixing your eyes no matter the circumstances. It is praying through your tears and going on another day when you don’t have energy.
The series of posts this week is challenging. I’ve felt the conviction of every writer, for words are really mirrors. That is why we do it together, as a community and family. We move forward. Today can be your day one. Start now.
Love without fear. Give whenever possible.
Life new life. Take time for another.
Speak out. Fight for freedom.
Find faith. Stand tall and
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