Last night we took the boys to my mother’s house for dinner. The house itself is about a block away from where I grew up. It stands directly next to the elementary school that I attended. Carter and Aiden, whenever they go down to visit, always end up at the playground.
My mom and I took the boys to the playground just after nightfall. The full moon crept up over the horizon as they ran and played. The night had a hint of spring and I couldn’t help but feel the ghosts of the past and all the days I walked that same space to and from my childhood.
Recently I made a choice to live more intentionally towards my goals as a professional writer, father, and husband. Goals require plans and plans require time. As believers, time can be a sensitive subject.
We pray for intervention, for God to change our lives now. So how do we deal with the cosmic yellow light?
When the answer isn’t go, but wait?
We like to think we have the concept of time locked down. Google self-help or inspirational books and you’ll find plenty about getting the life you want in the time you demand. Technology goes to support this dynamic. It takes no more than the swipe of a finger to order the most expensive items Amazon carries on their app.
Time is not so quick or fluid. Talk to survivors, the ones learning to live again after harsh pasts. Talk to the families who haven’t eaten in days and the men and women hunting for jobs after years of unemployment.
I still set plans and agendas. I’m working on more intentional faith and trust. I know God is active in every moment to make our lives part of his bigger dream. Deep inside my soul yells from the sideline.
I’m ready. Put me in coach!
Thankfully, that determination isn’t mine to make. We all have a place and a calling. We all have a job not yet finished as we are still breathing and our hearts still beat.
So tonight, take a breath. Help is coming. Doors will open. The preparation time will end and, in a moment, you will be pulled into the tide of action. Until then, enjoy the work and refinement.
This is the hard part.
Soon, the fun begins.