It has been a while.
I left off here in a dark place. In the few months since, things have changed. I’d looked in the mirror, stared into the abyss as it looked back at me.
I realized a few things.
Ironically, it took watching Tony Robbins on his Netflix documentary to help see the truth. To look at some limiting beliefs, to realize what I’d cost Val and the boys over the last ten years.
Things have changed.
I’ve given myself permission to be the best father and husband I can be, to be my own man and stand on that foundation. We cleaned out our house taking almost twenty bags of various things to be donated/trashed. My book collection is down to a few volumes of importance (everything from here out will be digital).
Some weight has lifted.
I started a new job, taken far too long to settle back into writing. I’ll start my first season as head coach for Carter’s baseball team this spring with opening day on April 1st. We are making steps towards a more purposeful life.
The boys are still crazy and active. They still surprise us with what they do and say on a daily basis.
So this blog will be a return to the words, the calling to put things down on paper, to stay honest, to honor the permission to write.
That’s the biggest thing that’s hit me in the past few months.
I’m allowed to learn and grow, to not have all the answers. To be a father and figure it out on a daily basis. To be a husband and do the best I can. To be a writer no matter where the words end up.
To reach an audience because I know you are still out there. You’ve been there like me and you’ve grown.
To know that it’s okay as we go forward.
I hope you’ll join me on this new start. Through a crazy baseball season and busy summer of sports for Aiden and Carter, trips to the pool and our first family vacation. Many stories wait to be told and I’m excited to see how they end up.
And I’m okay.
It’s taken a long time to get there, but I think I’ve finally found the starting point, the foundation to look towards the future and I’ll take that for 10:09 PM on a Tuesday night.