It was like meeting an old friend.
I fired up my laptop computer, waited for it to charge, and started a search that ended about five minutes later. A novel, one I’d poured myself into about 5 years ago, waited to be finished. It was time to crack open the pages again and get moving.
I emailed it to myself and, over the past two weeks, have started the process to get back with the story.
The changeover in a year is a traditional time for analysis and examination. Most people take stock and think about the coming 365 days. There’s a point where you run into a wall and realize it is time to turn around. So, Val and I started the usual efforts.
Going to the gym, clean eating, living with a purpose.
I’ve decided to live with momentum this year. Move forward with purpose. Pivot around any attempts to disrupt path and progress. It won’t be easy.
I just finished reading Josh Malerman’s novel Birdbox, the source for the popular Netflix movie with Sandra Bullock. Honestly, if you’ve seen the movie take the time to read the book. He’s a skilled writer and the story is that rare combination of pace and depth. He knows when to ratchet up the tension and carry a balance between exposition and action.
There’s a scene with a dog going crazy that still chills me today and I finished reading it this weekend.
One of the themes of the book, examined deeper than in the movie, is childhood and how “parenting” is now teaching children to hear and not look, wake up without opening their eyes, and prepare them to hear deeply. Malerman makes the point often that hearing, in this new world, is salvation. Characters die in their inability to hear, sometimes the lies in conversation and sometimes the monsters at the door.
Vision, in Malerman’s world is dangerous. What we see is now our death.
How we see can harm us. How we react can harm us.
We make choices daily. Be paralyzed or move forward. Listen to your body now or listen to your future body where you look the way you want. Listen to your finances now or your future finances with stability and growth. Choose for now or choose for later.
I’m tired of things I can’t control. 2019 can be a new start. At 36 I’m ready for new. This can truly be our best year, for me and for you.
It is time to live without the option of going back.
Want to know why something like Birdbox is so popular? Because it is emblematic of an American feeling. Burn down the present and restart. Even with a struggle, fight through it and find hope.
Keep moving, listening, and surviving. One day at a time.