One of my roommates in college dated a girl with destructive habits. She’d lived on the outskirts of Philadelphia, worked in the city, and would disappear for days at a time. She battled addiction and substances. He’d loved her then, and would often vent to me about his attempts to save her.
Eventually, they broke up.
For some of us, interpersonal relationships are the hardest part of life. Out of our sons, Aiden is the friend-maker. He can enter a room of kids he doesn’t know and come out knowing everyone. He will go up to a kid and ask him to play, no matter how old the kid is, and often he’ll find himself with a new friend. Carter is the opposite. He’s reserved, like I was. He watches a scene before he interacts. Conversation can be tough and navigating the preteen world is even tougher.
As hard as these are, a relationship that can transform you and your 2020 is looking into the mirror.
This morning I listened to an episode of Eric Zimmer’s podcast “The One You Feed.” It is episodes based around the parable of the Good Wolf (good qualities in life) and the Bad Wolf (bad qualities in life). The winner is the one you choose to feed. The episode this morning was an interview with Stanford Psychologist BJ Fogg. Fogg works in the area of Behavioral Change through what he calls tiny habits.
The entire episode is worth a listen, but one part stuck with me. He says in the beginning,
Be a friend to yourself.
He goes on to mention how many of us deal with self trash talk and how moving on from it can revolutionize our lives. As a veteran of self criticism, I know he’s right.
I don’t know about you, but my voice is cynical. I look at where I lack and become hardened, vindictive to struggle and envious to progress of others. On the hard days, the voice is not even negativity. Negativity implies a struggle. No, its an understanding that this desire for better just isn’t going to happen.
Recently, though study and reflection, the work of thinkers like Fogg, Ben Hardy, Erwin McManus, and through conversation with others I’ve found my view shifting. The idea of faith is psychologically and biologically powerful. Certainty comes through struggle.
Our stories shape our potential. Our future need not be married to our past. It can be a transformation experience. Our memories can be reshaped. Our victories can be celebrated and our struggles seen as opportunity to learn and change.
I haven’t been a great friend to myself over the years. I’d developed habits and found my way out of them. I gained and lost weight, stayed up too late while getting up too early. I’ve been emotionally distant to those I love and am working on it as a daily exercise in mindfulness.
One of my goals is to empower friendship with myself in 2020. To add courage and intention, to take big risks, to celebrate wins and see losses as chance to learn. To take on new things and expand horizons, to grow as a family and be a better father and husband.
My goal is to show my boys a father who knows himself and works to be better on a daily basis. To grow new behaviors and expand identity.
I believe we are never done growing. As long as we are breathing, our story isn’t over. My wish for you is the same, to grow in your friendship with yourself, to treat yourself better and look forward with new purpose.
To see 2020 with opportunity and make the most of it. To experience the joy of newness and change. To realize your potential and see hope for the future.
For the future is yours for the taking.